Friday, April 30, 2010

Play crack the sky.

[Drove 3593534 years to see brand new with julianne & marnie today, it was a fail. But we did make it to see the last song, so it was still worth it<3] 





We sent out the S.O.S. call.
It was a quarter past four, in the morning
When the storm broke our second anchor line.
Four months at sea. Four months of calm seas {only}
To be pounded in the shallows off the tip of Montauk Point.



They call 'em rogues. They travel fast and alone.
One hundred foot faces of God's good ocean gone wrong.
What they call love is a risk,
'Cause you will always get hit
Out of nowhere by some wave
And end up on your own.
 The hole in the hull defied the crew’s attempts,
To bail us out.
And flooded the engines and radio,
And half buried bow.


Your tongue is a rudder.
It steers the whole ship.
Sends your words past your lips
Or keeps them safe behind your teeth.
But the wrong words will strand you.
Come off course while you sleep.
Sweep your boat out to sea
Or dashed to bits on the reef.

The vessel groans
The ocean pressures its frame.
To the port I see the lighthouse
Through the sleet and the rain.
And I wish for one more day to give my
Love and repay debts.
But the morning finds our bodies washed up thirty miles west.

They say that the captain stays fast with the ship,
Through still and storm,
But this ain't the Dakota,
And the water's so cold,
{We} won't have to fight for long.



(This is the end.)
This story's old but it goes on and on until we disappear,
(This is the calm.)
Calm me and let me taste the salt you breathed while you were underneath,
(We are the risen.)
I am the one who haunts your dreams of mountains sunk below the sea,
(After the storm.)
I spoke the words but never gave a thought to what they all could mean,
(Rest in the sea.)
I know that this is what you want, a funeral keeps both of us apart.
(Washed up on the beach.)
You know that you are not alone, I need you like water in my lungs.
[x2]


This is the end.



Monday, April 26, 2010

"A person spends a lifetime searching for what was lost in there childhood"- J.Diaz

Fate has no destination, And doesn't always have an explanation.

Will i ever understand my own path?
Will i ever understand my own past?
The things that happened,
The parts of my heart that has never been sealed up,
What happens to them?...

Are they slowly going to tear my heart open more until i bleed to death or will i Learn to be comfortable with these holes,
Learn how to make them numb when i need to.
My life is in my own hands and im so afraid that it will slip through my fingers. I look back on my life and wonder why so many things went wrong,
Why so much pain had to take place.

"Mi chiedo perché si couldnt essere felice con me ... 
Gli ho dato tutto me stesso ed era l'unica cosa che mi credeva ancora a."

Im growing and learning from every expierience i am being put through.
Every moment of my life I wonder if Im still going to have to struggle,
Fight my own battle.
Its rough out there in the real world,
And I dont think a person notices such a thing until it smacks them in the face.
Im still young,
But my eyes and mind are growing wiser by the second.
This world is changing,
And possibly ending.
So where does that leave me?
In the dust,
Or in the light?

My time is just beggininng but I feel so lost and in the dark.
I have so much life ahead of me but what am i supposed to do with it,
Whats my capability of individuality?
I feel like my foundation is caving in,
All my thoughts and beliefs are curving in and out of place.
How do you go about this thing called life?
And wheres the finish line?

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

non hai mai mancato di impressionare me fino a quando non ha sentito il bisogno di impressionare

Io dovrei essere dirgli come mi sento veramente su di lui prima che lui se ne va. 
Al timore è quello che tutti continuano a dirmi di farlo. 
Mi dicono di seguire il mio intestino, 
Fai quello che pensi ritiene di destra.
Il mio stomaco mi ha condotto verso il basso tutti i tipi di percorsi,
Ive ha imparato a non rimpiangere nulla.
Che la vita è scritto a penna per una ragione, 
Nulla può essere cancellato.
Ho visto molte persone vanno e vengono. 
E prova a resistere alle poche persone che ancora vogliono sapere. 
Così ho capito è che si desidera andare.
Non vorrei che a complicare le cose poi sono già. 
Mi auguro solo che sarà lui a taks cura di sée lifes realizzare non tutto di inseguire i sogni ..

i never admitted it

But I didn’t believe a single word you ever said.

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Monday, April 19, 2010

FTS. JY.


I WISH SWINGING ON THE SWINGS WAS GOOD ENOUGH.
NOTHINGS EVER GOOD ENOUGH.
NOTHINGS EVER FUCKING GOOD ENOUGH.
IF I COULD GO ANY PLACE I WOULD TRAVAIL THROUGH TIME TO MY YOUTH.
WHERE EVERYTHING SEEMED SO PERFECT.
WHERE NOT ONCE I WORRIED ABOUT GROWING UP, GETTING A GOOD JOG, MAKING THE MONEY.
ALL I CARED ABOUT WAS THAT GOD DAMN SWING.
FUCK THE SYSTEM!

tea time.

i have these things floating around in my head,
sometimes they they lull about and gently knock against each other,
kind of like the dust balls courting in the corner of my bedroom,
i wish they would show some discrestion,
other times they race faster faster fast t t t t t t errrr,
they crash harder against each other,
mixing my thought into pulp,
i cant think straight straight straight what is straight,
is it north south east west where the did my compass go,
i dont see any forks in the roads just spoons and sporks,
i gave those up a while ago,
im lost in the jungle,
the bugs frighten me im all alone always alone,
i accidentally swallowed some butterflies that were having tea with me,
they wont leave me alone they say its cramped in my stomach,
the resources are plenty though,
i could really get used to this place..

Saturday, April 17, 2010


Sometimes I am so full of shit that it should be a crime.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

You have your oceans, I have my lakes.

And
when
your
drifting
out
to
sea.
Ill
be
sitting
at
my
lake
of
serenity.

The moring grows near, While you whisper goodbye in my ear.

You got brought up in conversation today,
And you dont fall far from my memory,
And lately it seems to be overwhelming me.
Because i find myself missing you next to me.


But i understand you had to go.
But now i find myself left alone.
And im sick of sleeping alone,
This bed has never felt so cold.

Do you remember the nights we would stay up for hours.
Just to have the sunrise greet us to a new day.
A few hours before we were counting stars.
Reminiscing about happier days.

These memory hunt me.
They make me see
What i was blind to see,
And im pretty sure
There was nothing left for you and me.

I'm still counting stars.
I'm still wishing on them shooting stars

[PRL]
[old memories, new words]

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Number 210 W.I.G.F

Have you ever just looked up at the stars,
And wondered if there was a another person in the world looking at that same star.
I wonder what they think when they look up,
Or what they would wish for if that star began to fall.

I stopped wishing  on shooting stars for a while. 
I never seemed to to see my wishes come to reality.
Thats  such a selfish line.. i know.
But its the truth.
  



I started a list of all the things im grateful for,
I just wasn't feeling like myself,
And needed some positive reminders of what makes my life worth waking up for.
[ I dont mean that in a negative way like im going to kill myself]

But its nice to see what makes life beautiful.
Number 210,
Im thankful for shooting stars.
Ive started to wish on them recently,


But instead of  making a wish for myself.
I'll make a wish for another.,
It feels good to know maybe my wish will come true for you.


Friday, April 9, 2010

"If you can't see, look. If you can't look, observe." 09

I've found myself lost,
And I'm not sure where to go.
I don't know what I really have, 
But I'm thankful for the few things I'm sure of.
Its amazing how much changes in the smallest amount of time.
I miss the complete happiness I used to hold, I want that happiness again.
Though, I don't want to re-visit my past...that's behind me. 
I'm trying to just look forward and keep my eyes straight. 
Maybe that will be the direction I'm looking for. 



-----

But you come to realize that the birds are even chained to the sky.

woman don't be lost you know what you want. warm&fuzzy is only okay for so long. mind blowing exhilaration is what i'm talking about, ya know ya know. the misery will be worth it and before you know it you won't be free any more but you will be happy, just so fucking happy, and you'll realize happiness is freedommmm.

JY<3








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Monday, April 5, 2010

You will never waste my time.




But you are the never ending sleep
That I love to treat with this medicine
I get from my, my closer friend
But all I see...

So come closer, baby

I want to see what you're made of