i was lost at sea and you never even found me

You settled into uneasy sleep,

And there are no easy answers,

To why you choose to leave.

And i believe this restlessness will never end,

And I'm telling myself I'll never feel whole again.

I knew in my gut i should have never gave in...
But I bit my tongue and swore you've changed.
Ive been thinking  about how we used to be.
How this rhythm used to scream so loud.
With your heart in sync with mine.
It used to sing proud.

But after this endless silence.
I'll let the beat slow down.
Until it sounds like whispers.
I'll let it fade out.

An as we sat on your back step, smoking a cigarette in open air.
I'll look over and tell you,
I never thought I'd be sitting here.
Then you asked me if i believe in fate,
Like you knew all along I'd be standing in your way.

With your hand in mine. 

i was happy.

But i knew i should have never let myself fall.

And are you really sorry or is it  fear?

Is the ghost of your inner demon gasping for air.

Will the same mistakes haunt you like they used to do?
Or are you afraid that your body won’t let you choose?

And in the time you were making up your mind, 

I put one foot forward and left you behind.

We tried to give it a second go.

Maybe all you really wanted was to dance alone. 

a poem inside of a story... reading between the lines.

I don't believe this, cause I do believe it.



An If this is it.
Than this ill tell you.
Ive closed my eyes for the last time.
An I just kissed you goodbye.
As if it was the last time.
Id ever kiss you goodbye.

An this walk felt like it would never end.
Though when I came too.
I was still standing right next to you.
An when I hear foot steps.
An All I see is snow,
Ill see you barefooted.
Looking up to me.


Only the feeling is .
I never let you go.
I swore I could.
I don't find it right to have to fill this silence,
Cause your eyes cut through it,
An see me for me.
An I want you for you.
An Id trade it all.
To lay here awake, beside you.
And as I lay my head on your chest.
An Hear it follow the rhythm to mine.
Only if I could lay here and listen to the rhythm
Cause your heart alone.
It plays my favorite song.


But, Ill get through tomorrow.
An Ill see If yesterday even mattered at all.
Until.
There is nothing left.
Worth reaching for.
So Ill take this breathe an let you out.
I came To ask you.
To Answer me,
Because I feel like this is the count down.


Is it sad to say, That I don't know where we stand.
I just hope I don't miss it.
I'm kinda, at the part where I don't know whats next.
I actually don't know what to do next.
I keep finding myself walking in circles.
An I was at the point where I didn't even know.
An I was at the point where I never thought
Id find you.

An when you come to me,
An there in your eyes.
Is every star that I need,
I mine as well be left to drawn at sea.
Cause,
My last request would be for you.
To just stay beside me.


Tonight, I might have lied.
if i said it was fine Id let you go.
I told myself over and over.
That I'm alright, I'm actually alright.
An As I drove, I swore id be alright.
An I began to think.
that i can barley handle your icy blues.
Locked on me.
How they cut me open an let me see
What was possibly meant to be...

You should have never let me fall, But I did.
And i know Ive been hit hard.
But before I can let you go.
There is so many things
I wish you could know.


So tonight I'll make a toast, Cause I'm hoping you actually hear me.
I just want to see your eyes stare right through me.
Straight insides me.
I'm not really ready to say goodbye.
An I thought I could just let you go.
An be alone. The hardest part is thinking that.
Your sleeping alone.
An the hardest part is...
I don't want you to sleep alone


Ive got you stuck in my head.
An I really don't know if you've got it that bad.
So I think You should come and
sit with me.
I'm trying my best not to try at all.
And all I know is How to brace myself for a fall.
The days have come and gone.
Ive watch a lot of people come and go.
An to be honest I'm not quite ready to let you go.

An If i can hear you laugh once more.
An If I may,
Id like to make you laugh once more.
And I know I haven't got much of anything.
But, Id like you to maybe sit here.
An I'm pretty sure we've got everything.
An If I could have promised you it all.
Would you've still asked to go.
Do you really have to go?
Or could you possibly sit with me.
Cuz I cant live with the thought.
Of you not having what you need.



I'm sorry.

waiting for this restless sleep to end. gotta feel whole again.

You shake so bad while you sleep.
From the skeletons you have locked so deep.
It kinda makes me wonder,
How bad your demon could be.






You hold on to me so tight,
Through out a good part of every night.
Like your afraid they will take me with them.
And i thought you would never let them...


Cause'


In your arms i did feel safe.
And i wish i could grab your hand,
To lead you out of the darkness.




And what upset's me the most,
Is you let your demon grab ahold.
And you wont let them let go.
So that you can grow.


And If i could.
Id fight them off alone,
One by one I'd fight them.
I"ll grab your hand and lead you out of the darkness.
Just to know you can escape from this restlessness.
But you told me we would overcome this battle.
With your hand in mine.
we'll take on this army as one.