burn it down

And when it all comes crashing down.. who will be there to catch you?
yourself that's who. so keep your arms straight out and your hands flat so you have the power to push yourself back up to your feet.

higher and higher and higher

Im so unsure with myself.

I feel like sleep medication,

Locked an sealed in a small blue capsule .

Taking myself out of reality and into my own mind

I used to get freaked about the thoughts that rambled in my head.

I would often think i was the only one  that could hear constant chatter.

And be ashamed to tell people.

But i suppose its not as different as i think it is.

If we didn't have an inner voice how could we think before we just stated blurting out words, right?

Pick Up. Shut Up

I need some new faces, new jokes, new events. A one way ticket out'a here.

just go

I was talking with my brother tonight.

About just leaving.

Getting up and going to the first place that came to mind.

Start all over,

Clean slate

I think the first thing i'd do would be to delete my facebook, myspace & twitter.

BAM! i just erased ten thousand  people that i dont even know or care to know out of my life.

Second i would change my cell number.

If you think about it, how many people do you think has your number?

I would guess its alot.

I really only need my family and a handful of good friends.

I could actually feel the weight of my shoulders. 

i want to leave.

I want to "Just go",

What if i told you there is a ticket you can buy to start a new life.

Would you buy it?

Everyone peregrinates in there life.

Lately ive been seeing things in a whole new perspective.

I feel like if you stay in your home town after high school you get stuck here.

All there faces stay the same,

With they're fake smiles and hollow eyes.

Zombies trapped to this life.

Paint a smile, Ill stay awhile.

I'ts all mixed with indecision 

Whats the story you choose to hide.

Whats the secret your leaving behind?

I always seem to do this.

Pry at the unknown.

But you cant not be honest with the one you choose to hold.

I'm not here to hear excuses.

I'm tired of the dragging sound of feet on pavement.

No more procrastinating.

Spill it.

And nothing can go right with me it must be that I've been smoking too long.

What hollow eye's you have, The better to hide this emotionless drag.

'They say i look just like her,
They can hear her in my laugh.'
     "You have the prettiest eyes just like your mothers"
     "There so bright, Would you look at that!"       


'But when i look in the mirror ,
I can't stand the reflection staring back.
I get chills of the thought of you staring back.

And as i look at myself,
Your slowly shining through
Cause your eyes are my eyes
They make me see the real you.

I just wish you could realize i see all your lies,
And as the thought of you run's through my mind. 
i get sick to my stomach because i cant leave you behind. 


Ive been caught in the rain one to many times,
Watched you destroy everyhting that got in your way,
To just get up and leave the pieces behind,
Ive seen you shatter so many life's.
With not an oz of sympathy to cross your mind.
 
Your eyes are my eyes
And they've seen how you manipulated your way through life.
But im trying my hardest to keep you hidden underneath,
Ill learn from your mistakes.
And not have them haunt my days.


Your a monster.