Blue sky's, Tired eye's

I'm flouting on cloud nine,
My head is in the sky,
As we slip into a dreamless slumber, 
I can feel a steady heart beat on mine.

"What is the point, lover?"

Let's see what we can uncover!
I feel that everything is finally coming together.

Confession four hundred fifty seven

I have a sick twisted desire to be a world wide drug pusher.

congratulations your first hate mail

"i found service i went the extra mile to get it. So you go the last one to talk to me about it."
I wear thick armor and i wont break.
I have no problem walking the other way,
With my finger in the air,
Ill show not one oz of remorse.

Ill up one you,
Ive learned from the best.
Believe me when i said,
You didn't get nearly as far under my skin...
As you wish you did.
And i hope it echos through your head.
When i tell you i dont need you.
Like a beat you just cant shake.
As you watch this break.


Ive been through it.
Knocked six feet under,
Just to be resuscitated.
Over and over i'd pick myself up,
Just to be knocked down again.

Im tired of the fall,
Sick of the rocks that await at the bottom,
Ill get chairs and ill stack them,
Climb up and arise,
Watch me,
As i leave you behind.

Shutter shades.

ill wear hollow eyes,
just to hide what im feeling inside,
complication,
frustration,
confutation,
misunderstood,
overwhelmed,
abandon,
shameful,
lost.

Its easier to breath then believe.

NOTE:  This is very old originally written February 06, 2010


As i recall  i didn't write this story.
And well you never did walk a mile in the freezing cold,
Just to prove a point.

If it was all for nothing.
Answer this last question.
Why would you keep in touch?
Year after year,
Month after month?

And if this is the let down,
Ill let you down easy.
I was never the person to fight,
Always so nice,
Always so nice.

But I can't let them win this fight,
As If nothing you felt you didn't feel was right.
And yes I'll admit it,
It kills me.
I'll stand on a chair,
As i scream it in your face,
As if its all going to change.

But it wont bring me down,
I wont have it  bring me down.
I'll hold my head up high,
And let you fade out.

I just wish i saw it coming,
But whats the fun in that?
You knew exactly how to do it.
And i got played with a standing ovation.
Listen to them clap.

I cant believe i fell for such a corny line.
But when your icy blues would meet mine,
My heart would dance.
There was so much rhythm.
So much chance,

But ever song comes to an end,
And you see straight inside.
There's lies in your eye's,
How could I have been that blind?

Fall.

Everything's moving at a steady beat.

I hate my face, I hate this place,and I'm stung out again

On the good days, I feel like I get it, like it all makes sense. I can stay in the moment, I don't have to control everything in the future, and I believe everything is going to work out fine. On the bad days I just wanna grab the phone and start dialing numbers. I want to pull my hair and run through the streets screaming.