Mess

Leave.
You.
Always.
Leave.

Fire ash and dust.

I'm under your spell

Ain't nobody's business

I'm already there

And it ain't nobody's business

I can do what I want I'm in complete control
That's what I tell myself
I got a mind of my own I'll be alright alone
Don't need anybody else
Oh, she don't see the light that's shining deep within the eyes, can't find it.
Tell me what you want to know.
Tell me where you go, Where you want to go.
Lets take it right back to where we used to go.
No we will never look back,We will never look back.
And everything we touch will turn to gold dust.
Days burn to ash
Nights will flash to fast,

It feels better in the dark.
I feel closer to your heart.
lights flash before my eyes.
I see the clouds open.
When the sun comes out.
The world, It comes between us.

That's what I tell myself.
Don't need anybody else.
Oh, she don't see the light that's shining deep within the eyes, can't find it.
Tell me what you want to know.
Tell me where you go, Where you want to go.
Lets take it right back to where we used to go.
No we will never look back,
We will never look back.

With nothing but you're heart beat.
That bone striking
Head thumping beat that holds a strong steady rhythm in my ear.
But, everything we touch will turn to gold dust.
Days burn to ash
Nights will flash to fast.
And by morning the world will come between us.

Eyes can only tell so many lies... I must have died this time.

'They say i look just like her,
They can hear her in my laugh.'
     "You have the prettiest eyes just like your mothers"
     "There so bright, Would you look at that!"       


'But when i look in the mirror ,
I can't stand the reflection staring back.
I get chills of the thought of you staring back.

And as i look at myself,
Your slowly shining through
Cause your eyes are my eyes
They make me see the real you.

Blue eyed beauty  you shouldn't cry,

I wish i could dry your eyes...

Your to pretty to cry.

Sometimes i wonder if these people are blind,

I've never seen more sadness behind a set of eyes.

I live behind this fake smile

Sometimes i surprise myself on how happy i can act.

Ive lost every emotion... knocked down with every oz of strength i had.

I feel it in the depths of my stomach, 

These butterfly's sink like stone.

And now im pondering why i choose to stay in the cold.

My eyes are the darkest blue ive ever laid eyes on.

Limbo

You either say how you feel and fuck it up or say nothing and let it fuck you up. 

I feel like I'm holding myself back to actually finding someone that's going to give me their whole heart. I hesitate to get to know another because of the feelings I have for you. 

I need to stop putting my life on pause for something that's been stuck in limbo for two years. 

I'm afraid if I don't let you go I might pass up something great 

Rhythm

Electrified heart stopping emotion.

That's what we all crave. 

The beats that calmly put us into a sweet slumber after being completely intoxicated with one another. It's that feeling when you hear a song. That overwhelming, bone striking, heart throbbing feeling that nothing else in this world can compare too.  

Checkmate

Lets play a game.

this is embarrassing,

i dont even like you.

so why do i still insist on thinking there's more to you?

there isn't

your so shallow i can see right through you.

so weak your screams echo...

Even through silence.

you dont have to speak.

i can see it...

see it in the way you look at me.

at her.

the other one

this one

which one?

that one?

jezz how the hell can you remember their names.

i would be so lost in this game.

Its no surprised your going insane,

and this is why you hide from your pain

behind a bottle.

to ashamed to build back the bridges you've burned.

to afraid to face your own battles.

kick me in the stomach to knock the wind out of me once again.

But your the same person to help me to my feet.

stand  up your okay.

were okay.

But im sick of being a pawn in your game.

contently being moved around where you want me.

like im tied to a string.

jokes on me,

once again 

I should take my own advice.

Listen to what i preach.

But i like to build myself up for a fall.

How much higher can we get this wall?

Jump,

Jump,

Jump,

Jump.

Im fucking climbing!

Until it all comes crashing down.

But wait hurry lets put her back together.

just to let her know im here.

You'll always be here locked in my brain

And believe me i can feel the pain.

Your brain freeze in 100 degree weather.

Someone please get me a sweater.

Before i get as cold as you are.

Wrap me up and keep me warm.

Get me out of this snow storm!!

Im tired of the bitterness and being unsure.

Im living in the past i cant believe im back where i started.

it happened so fast.

But who was thinking.

Most the time it was just fun. 

It only starts to pour..

when you decide to run. 

I dont think you can handle my honesty.

Because its not honest at all.

Everyday im faced with a new out look on how im going to knock down my wall.

Just to face another fall.

Why?

Always asking why?

Ive made a list.. wanna see it?

Im sorry.

I love you.

Good bye.

Why.

I call it my bullshit list cause that's all it is..

Nothing but empty words.

meaningless.

Why? Well i'll say goodbye because I love you... Im sorry.

Not today friend

To be perfectly honest I don't know what I should be writing. 

I feel no different now then I did then. 

I'm not confused or uncertain or lost.  

I'm not missing, wishing or hold any particular desire for you like I thought I would. 

Basically I'm feeling no sort of fallen feelings.

 

I guess I can say I'm in the clear. 

I dodged another built. 

Once again...