Rhythm

Electrified heart stopping emotion.

That's what we all crave. 

The beats that calmly put us into a sweet slumber after being completely intoxicated with one another. It's that feeling when you hear a song. That overwhelming, bone striking, heart throbbing feeling that nothing else in this world can compare too.  

Checkmate

Lets play a game.

this is embarrassing,

i dont even like you.

so why do i still insist on thinking there's more to you?

there isn't

your so shallow i can see right through you.

so weak your screams echo...

Even through silence.

you dont have to speak.

i can see it...

see it in the way you look at me.

at her.

the other one

this one

which one?

that one?

jezz how the hell can you remember their names.

i would be so lost in this game.

Its no surprised your going insane,

and this is why you hide from your pain

behind a bottle.

to ashamed to build back the bridges you've burned.

to afraid to face your own battles.

kick me in the stomach to knock the wind out of me once again.

But your the same person to help me to my feet.

stand  up your okay.

were okay.

But im sick of being a pawn in your game.

contently being moved around where you want me.

like im tied to a string.

jokes on me,

once again 

I should take my own advice.

Listen to what i preach.

But i like to build myself up for a fall.

How much higher can we get this wall?

Jump,

Jump,

Jump,

Jump.

Im fucking climbing!

Until it all comes crashing down.

But wait hurry lets put her back together.

just to let her know im here.

You'll always be here locked in my brain

And believe me i can feel the pain.

Your brain freeze in 100 degree weather.

Someone please get me a sweater.

Before i get as cold as you are.

Wrap me up and keep me warm.

Get me out of this snow storm!!

Im tired of the bitterness and being unsure.

Im living in the past i cant believe im back where i started.

it happened so fast.

But who was thinking.

Most the time it was just fun. 

It only starts to pour..

when you decide to run. 

I dont think you can handle my honesty.

Because its not honest at all.

Everyday im faced with a new out look on how im going to knock down my wall.

Just to face another fall.

Why?

Always asking why?

Ive made a list.. wanna see it?

Im sorry.

I love you.

Good bye.

Why.

I call it my bullshit list cause that's all it is..

Nothing but empty words.

meaningless.

Why? Well i'll say goodbye because I love you... Im sorry.

Not today friend

To be perfectly honest I don't know what I should be writing. 

I feel no different now then I did then. 

I'm not confused or uncertain or lost.  

I'm not missing, wishing or hold any particular desire for you like I thought I would. 

Basically I'm feeling no sort of fallen feelings.

 

I guess I can say I'm in the clear. 

I dodged another built. 

Once again...

The rambling of a static mind

I wish there was a manual on how life works. 

A GPS that helps us see the roads we choose and where we will end up when we choose them. 

Guidance, structure, support, balance, stability and responsibility. 

These are all the things I was taught through out my life.  

We are molded and formed each and every day 

We become individuals with our own beliefs, our own point of views, and our own voice. 

I've been ask at times what I believe in. Going into the aspect of religion "with no judgment on anyone else's beliefs" it confuses me. Tell me somthing... How did one man create every living, breathing thing? 

If you ask me I think god is just an excuse someone used one day so they didn't come of crazy. Like "oh no I'm not talking to myself, I was talking to god" 

Something's about the bible I can understand. Like Adam and Eve and the temptation they had to taste the forbidden fruit. This I can relate to. There are so many forbidden friuts in my life, the temptations are overwhelming, yes. But I remember what I was taught growing up. 

Guidance, structure, support, balance, stability and responsibility. 

You can choose to fight temptation  or you can choose to give into temptation. If you choose to fight it and you have the power with in yourself to never let it overcome you... Well then congradulations...Your a lot stronger then a lot of people that I know. 

But If you are like most. Temptation gets the best of you and you give into the forbidden fruit. 

What ever that fruit may be. 

I don't believe in depriving yourself. I believe if you can find a happy middle in anything you do,you are able to remain blance with out tipping over. 

The temptations are there for a reason. They wouldn't be there if they weren't. These reasons are for you to grow and learn and develop as individual humans. 

Me personally I find no shame in giving into temptations. As Long as you can control and stabilize yourself with out loosing blance. 

Note that the key word here is balance. There always has to be an equal balance in everything you do. 

-jgali