What hollow eye's you have, The better to hide this emotionless drag.

'They say i look just like her,
They can hear her in my laugh.'
     "You have the prettiest eyes just like your mothers"
     "There so bright, Would you look at that!"       


'But when i look in the mirror ,
I can't stand the reflection staring back.
I get chills of the thought of you staring back.

And as i look at myself,
Your slowly shining through
Cause your eyes are my eyes
They make me see the real you.

I just wish you could realize i see all your lies,
And as the thought of you run's through my mind. 
i get sick to my stomach because i cant leave you behind. 


Ive been caught in the rain one to many times,
Watched you destroy everyhting that got in your way,
To just get up and leave the pieces behind,
Ive seen you shatter so many life's.
With not an oz of sympathy to cross your mind.
 
Your eyes are my eyes
And they've seen how you manipulated your way through life.
But im trying my hardest to keep you hidden underneath,
Ill learn from your mistakes.
And not have them haunt my days.


Your a monster.

Blue sky's, Tired eye's

I'm flouting on cloud nine,
My head is in the sky,
As we slip into a dreamless slumber, 
I can feel a steady heart beat on mine.

"What is the point, lover?"

Let's see what we can uncover!
I feel that everything is finally coming together.

Confession four hundred fifty seven

I have a sick twisted desire to be a world wide drug pusher.

congratulations your first hate mail

"i found service i went the extra mile to get it. So you go the last one to talk to me about it."
I wear thick armor and i wont break.
I have no problem walking the other way,
With my finger in the air,
Ill show not one oz of remorse.

Ill up one you,
Ive learned from the best.
Believe me when i said,
You didn't get nearly as far under my skin...
As you wish you did.
And i hope it echos through your head.
When i tell you i dont need you.
Like a beat you just cant shake.
As you watch this break.


Ive been through it.
Knocked six feet under,
Just to be resuscitated.
Over and over i'd pick myself up,
Just to be knocked down again.

Im tired of the fall,
Sick of the rocks that await at the bottom,
Ill get chairs and ill stack them,
Climb up and arise,
Watch me,
As i leave you behind.

Shutter shades.

ill wear hollow eyes,
just to hide what im feeling inside,
complication,
frustration,
confutation,
misunderstood,
overwhelmed,
abandon,
shameful,
lost.

Its easier to breath then believe.

NOTE:  This is very old originally written February 06, 2010


As i recall  i didn't write this story.
And well you never did walk a mile in the freezing cold,
Just to prove a point.

If it was all for nothing.
Answer this last question.
Why would you keep in touch?
Year after year,
Month after month?

And if this is the let down,
Ill let you down easy.
I was never the person to fight,
Always so nice,
Always so nice.

But I can't let them win this fight,
As If nothing you felt you didn't feel was right.
And yes I'll admit it,
It kills me.
I'll stand on a chair,
As i scream it in your face,
As if its all going to change.

But it wont bring me down,
I wont have it  bring me down.
I'll hold my head up high,
And let you fade out.

I just wish i saw it coming,
But whats the fun in that?
You knew exactly how to do it.
And i got played with a standing ovation.
Listen to them clap.

I cant believe i fell for such a corny line.
But when your icy blues would meet mine,
My heart would dance.
There was so much rhythm.
So much chance,

But ever song comes to an end,
And you see straight inside.
There's lies in your eye's,
How could I have been that blind?

Fall.

Everything's moving at a steady beat.

I hate my face, I hate this place,and I'm stung out again

On the good days, I feel like I get it, like it all makes sense. I can stay in the moment, I don't have to control everything in the future, and I believe everything is going to work out fine. On the bad days I just wanna grab the phone and start dialing numbers. I want to pull my hair and run through the streets screaming.

 

Eyes can only tell so many lies... I must have died this time

I at lest get five people a day tell me how beautiful my eyes are.

Blue eyed beauty  you shouldn't cry,

I wish i could dry your eyes...

Your to pretty to cry.

Sometimes i wonder if these people are blind,

I've never seen more sadness behind a set of eyes.

I live behind this fake smile

Sometimes i surprise myself on how happy i can act.

Ive lost every emotion... knocked down with every oz of strength i had.

I feel it in the depths of my stomach, 

These butter flys sink like stone.

And now im pondering why i choose to stay in the cold.

My eyes are the darkest blue ive ever laid eyes on.

So push her smile on me like a drug pusher lending you that first taste of addiction,

My eyes tended the light at the end of a pipe dream through rose colored glasses.

You really shouldn't drink so much sun, burning never was one of your strong points.

Lets make a difference.

My heart is racing and I'm not sure why or how its holding such an intense rhythm.
I'm confused but quite aware of this feeling.
Scattered but put together.
Nervous but I'm managing to keep perfectly calm.


This beat is growing louder
As it thumps in the back of my head, Down to the brim of the bottom of my stomach.
Whats happening to me?


I feel the sudden erg to drop the world at my feet.
And watch as it crashes to the floor.
Just to put the necessary pieces back in play.
There's no turning back now, The effects have already takin its course.
Im riding it out and see where this winding trail takes me.


I'm to good to sit solitary, alone, hidden from..
what i could be, what I'm going to make my self to be.






"Ive known you a long time jess, and you've always seen yourself smaller then you actually are"


"You have alot to offer to this world, With your bright eyes and your shining smile. Your going to make something of yourself"


"Dont let anyone hold you down, dont let anyone tell you you cant do it, Cause you can do it. And you will do it"


"Your to good for this town"

DM.

We don't have to keep any ties, Save all of your hollow lies.

Yeasayer - Tightrope.

Oh, give it, give it, give it, give it, give it
Until you just can't give no more